Friday, November 25, 2011

A Blurring Signboard


To let drag on is never to get ready to act as one's wish dreams for;
to ignore the past experience is to stumble upon the same again;
to yield to internal mess or strife is to let plunder again;
to stick along the right course is to come out smart one day—
an instant jolt to a numbing entity.


Sunday, November 20, 2011

Pilgrimage to Paro Taktsang


Part: I

June 1, 2011

It is 30th today of Bhutanese calendar, regarded as Sabbath. As preplanned, we prepare to leave for Paro Taktsang (Tiger Den), which is regarded as the most significant among other Guru’s holy sites mostly on the rocky precipices: Ugyen Dhak, Dhak Karpo, etc. It attracts tourists and devotees from India and abroad but mostly local pious ones.

The familiar narrow asphalt road alongside the river on one side and the fertile fields on the other and then the turn from the main road at Satsam Chorten along the non-asphalt road. Just off ahead the turn the two storeys building with corrugated iron roof, the small apple garden protected by the waist high stone-walled fence (the round white stones from the riverside below) alongside the bumpy road, the apple trees bearing small apples like their buds, the pine trees on the opposite side: so familiar as of my staying here twice (in 1995 and 2002) when my sister Yangzom stayed here in the building in her single room on rent with the shared bathroom and kitchen, when she had her job at Yangphel Handicrafts.

The green painted iron bridge over the river is yet robust as said built by Janpanese. It’s adorned with cloth-made muti-colored wind-flags, the mantras and auspicious signs printed on the pieces of cheap loosely woven rectangular cloth for good fortune and success, strung stretched along either side from one end to another. Those weathered ones dangle below the newer ones flying above on tighter strings. It connects to the tiny hamlet with sparse households on the other side of the river.
Taken by Choedon from the halfway point

Not like in 1995, when Gen La on a hired horse led by the village lad but only up along the jagged rutted path, there is now road up to the certain point amid freshly wetted lush green pines bearing tawny new cones. Tourism must have prompted the same. It’s really pleasing to drive past the sparse households with walled apple gardens around and enter the pine-greenery. The point, the cleared opening with some wooden shacks on one side, where a vehicle has to be parked and start on foot. And just ahead the wider opening with lush green turf dotted with left unmaintained apple trees and a few horses nibbling at turf-naps. From the trace of a left household I wonder what forced them to leave such lovely place surrounded by the grandeur of coniferous forest and the magnificent view of Taktsang on the waistline of the towering precipice. But more precarious seems to be the lonely temple perched on the other rocky hill-top overlooking Taktsang. And only later I’m going to learn this hill-top isn't higher than the next by on whose waistline Taktsang is but it overlooks Taktsang below like surprisingly landed on a miraculous ledge.

We take some pictures from here with Taktsang at the backdrop. There are those saddled horses for hire. As we advance forward with those noisy Indian tourists the melodious chirrups coming from the thickets of pines around are like welcoming notes.

A group of Indian tourists as our companies to Taktsang. From the elder guy I learn they are from Mumbai but they belong to Kerala, but the other lady says she is from Goa. The guy says going for such site is experiencing and there are such sites in Kerala. A cute girl, bright complexion in dark trousers and shirt, with her seemingly dad says ‘hi’ to me and I greet back in the same way as we toil up along the winding rutted path replete with dried leaves of the thorny bushes with thorn-brimmed leaves. It was as of the recent rains that have washed them all along the deepened ruts. But the thick-waisted bespectacled young Indian in his early twenties, who is in tight dark jeans and synthetic black T-shirt accentuating his bulging waistline, suffers more as he is the last one leaving behind whiffs of his body odour. He hasn’t got anything to carry but he can’t make more than a few steps and rests gasping, his fatigued eyes seemingly lifeless through the white narrow glasses now burden rather than a part of his fashion taste.

Burning my fresh energy fuel in such crude fast-paced steps rather than in a saving firm-paced ones, I now feel struggling against troubling thin breaths after covering the initial distance that leaves them behind so. Choedon is off ahead disappeared from my sight. I now find how my concern for her is a huge misconception.

Being unable to make more than a few steps ahead at a time, I let Karchung and sister overtake me that saves me a lot, especially for my sister’s carrying the only thing I have, the woven basket of flattened plastic reeds with the edible stuffs inside. I find their paces are experienced slow ones.

The cute Indian girl and her dad are ahead of us, when my sister finds sunglasses dropped behind them and tells to me ask for them. As I pick up the glasses and do the same with ‘excuse me’, the guy, her dad, takes a few steps down to take it saying ‘thanks’. Then we manage to overtake them. From this point I try to be at Karchung and sister’s heels. I find those green painted Use Me trashbins made out of oil-containers dotted along the turns and there are dug pits for the same; thanks for those drinking water-posts with protruding taps above overflowing wooden troughs.

As I am toiling behind them but see them off ahead, I find a Bhutanese guy in dark Goe appears abruptly behind me from a shortcut and he crosses the proper route to try up along another shortcut. The sleeves of his Goe wrapped around his waist revealing his underwear, a white T-shirt. His funky hairstyle gelled wet, maintained cluster of beard below his chin, the sunglasses on his bright face speak some of his taste in vanity. But I can’t have a close look at him. He is on a call with his cell phone and looks at ease not like me fighting with breaths. And I am going to learn later he is usual commuter, the experienced one, the tourist guide now of those Indians left far behind him. It must be him shouting at those Indian tourists down there at the parking point, “Start walking!”

As I reach the flat point with the drinking water-post, the shrine with a large painted prayer-wheel, I find him sitting on a bench. As I walk past him ahead, I hear him saying ‘halfway’ to those Indians reaching the point. It leads to a tourist reception of the sort. From here we leave them behind. I’m going to see them only at Taktsang while standing on the steps to butter-lamps offering cell after visiting the Guru’s prime shrines. I see now the Bhutanese guy in dark Goe, their guide, has befriended his clients well from the way how he chats with the cute Indian girl. “I would carry you over there”, he says as she must have pointed out there, the overrunning beauty of coniferous splendour on the slopes of the yonder hills and below the rocky precipices. “Oh, it can’t be easy”, she says laughingly. And I can’t overhear anymore.

Then at last at the point at the edge of the semi-rocky slope, like at the knee-line of the hill, almost level opposite with Taktsang perched on the rocky ledge on the other side and the winding crude slab-steps down with iron and concrete hand rials on concrete posts up to the angle of the rocky walls. The lovely fall coursing down the dark slippery walls, the drizzles can be felt when crossing the small concrete bridge. Up from the point there the current of this fall can be heard like background music to the chill of the site. And it’s to take the same steps upward till the proper entrance of the imposing holy site. But before hitting the steps up we take some time here taking some pictures or enjoying the views around.

Friday, November 11, 2011

Snub Me!

Used am I to a sneer
Now the feeblest peer.

Hardened am I numb
Apt for thy silly snub.

To this nadir I breathe
A solace down depth--

A sentiment tarnished
Form a beauty bleached.

Fated-handicapped strife
Now find my damning life.

A forced smile boring
A spontaneous blurring--

Yonder, pray, a sign ajar
Asunder slip through afar--

A wonderland stark mindless
Thereby bereft of closeness.

Yeah, now snub me a mad
Too deranged to feel sad.

Please: Don't instruct me how to breathe fire as I am aware of shedding extinguishing chill later on. 


Monday, October 31, 2011

Ouch!


Courtesy: A Tibetan nomad lad drawn by Tenzin Dolma La


Even the last dregs
Gulped.

Emasculated sense
Numb.

A painting sense
Thus--

Like struggling limbs
Stuck.

A passing image
Missed.

The prime state now
Rules.

A fragile entity
Wails.

A wished fretwork
Blurs.

Yonder a dream
Falls.

An abrupt shove
Needy!

Galvanize not to
Dream...



Tuesday, October 11, 2011

Little Lhasa




Dharamsala: From where I stay at the base level of the Upper Dhasa hill off below Jogiwara Road like at the bottom of a pit but elevated from the gorge with a gurgling stream flowing along the narrow bed to Lower Dhasa (the base plains abutted to the foothills of the Himalayas), from the veranda with iron-railing I find the silhouettes of the hills rising before me over there rather threatening. The almost full moon tonight first peeps from behind them like stealing a peek at us. Later I find it like debauching amid the soft cotton like clouds that help it to have a jagged brimmed halo with light tawny tint—it seems to have attained its full enlightenment, glorious so. But a little later I find it against the clear background with those sparse stars but without its lovely halo now. The lower hilltops with sparse coniferous trees look like bald heads with spiky hair in the middle and the upper hilltops shrouded in grey hazes like the snow clad peaks are in a backstage rehearsal to show their grandeur later on. These are the beauty of Dhasa I find tonight rather accidentally.               

Saturday, October 1, 2011

The Musical Offerings


October 1, 2011.


Yet again a drowsy day today with bone-biting cool breezes that trouble me a lot at the teaching, especially during the latter session from 1pm to 3pm. It forces me to warm up my knees, in cross-legged, by chafing with open palms. As my first experience of attending such teaching with punctuated gaps for the translation (not like the one that synchronizes along as there is such in English today) in Chinese this time as for the main devotees are Taiwanese, I find it rather hard to get adapted but I can utilize the interval moments for reading the book I have with me rather than reflecting on what have been just taught by His Holiness that I find like too taken away to follow so. Yeah, the case of distraction that sucks the will and effort to do so. But I don’t waste them. I see the case can be for better or clearer communication than with an earpiece could do.

The special scene this time as like the welcoming melody that I see for the first time here is a group of musicians from Taiwan with violins, flutes and harps on the rows of cream-white plastic chairs set in the reserved gallery of the main temple paved front yard. Each stringed musical instrument has a piece of paper, may be a set of notes, attached on its shaft raised upright from the lap. Yeah, the welcoming notes or what we call ‘musical offerings’ for His Holiness, the master, the Guru—in meaning for what he is going to impart, the holy teachings of Lord Buddha, this time Nagarjuna’s In Praise of the Dharmadhatu, the most subtle mind-consciousness and its pristine luminous nature.

It’s melodious and must be calming if one knows how to listen. Even if I can’t find the latter, I feel this appreciation for their dedications through such way that His Holiness, when walking to the main temple for teaching in the morning from his abode over the yard, acknowledges gracefully by studying them for a moment. Even just after the lunch break and before the latter session they play for almost an hour amid applause at the end of each piece. It’s really imparting as played by mostly experienced seniors. 

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Light The Candle


September 26, 2011.

The expected weather this time at Dhasa, as said after the local Mela (sort of vendors of varied household stuffs week long display of their cheap wares) would be more pleasant as marking the end of rain and blanketing mist, proves the otherwise: with accidental gush of rains, cloudy, drowsy and misty now and then. It seems to have forgotten its bliss. It’s again drowsy today but no rain—the sky overcast all the day long.

When Sersang comes back after his English class at Tibet Charity, he behaves rather oddly like not responding well and brooding. I only after some while, when he must have gained a lift of mood, learn from him again the two young monks, Lobsang Kalsang and Lobsang Kunchok who are 18, of Ngaba Kirti monastery in Tibet did protest this morning at 10.30am by setting themselves ablaze  against now months long extreme Chinese suppression and notorious austere re-education schemes carried out at the under-siege monastery after Lobsang Phuntsok of Kirti monastery who succumbed to death after setting himself ablaze on 16 March this year as to commemorate the 3rd anniversary of Tibet’s large scale demonstrations against Chinese tyranny throughout Tibet in March 2008, when the regime was in full swing to deploy, spend and take whatever it cost to cheat the world by being able to host Olympic Game and thereby proving progress, prosperity, unity, happiness and freedom even in her occupied hinterlands, especially Tibet.

Yeah, he has real reason to be so. I get him. I thereafter search on internet about the same through facebook and learn some from phayul.com and dossiertibet.it. I update my stauts by sharing the same of dossiertibet.it but I learn more from the former site[1]

“There must be a program on the same today?” I ask him.

“Yes, there is going to be candle light vigil this evening”, he says looking down on the tip of his nose, seemingly in trance yet.
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As it’s 5.10pm and the program usually starts at 6.30pm, we prepare to leave after a strong tea. We decide to take a Lingkor, the clockwise long circumambulation around Lhagyal Ri, the abode of His Holiness the Dalai Lama. The winding path around is deserted as usual. When we near the bustling main square, from where the program kicks off, I hear a cracking voice over microphone asking for the gathering. There are some participants stading in a row and holding candles (set in the hole made on a piece of ripped carton-paper to guard from melted drips) on the parts of the square like filling the brim and creating a scene like spectators watching over something happening in the middle. We take our positions at one side on the steps of a store. As candle of such is distributed free here not like in South India, Sersang goes over to take two from the carton-box for us.

The speaker on the portable microphone is a young short Tibetan guy in a striped polo-shirt and bright cotton trousers. His languid and pressed-thin voice suggests he has been doing so for the time. When he speaks in English, I see how he contorts his mouth like mouthing the same torments him a great deal. I overhear the one behind me saying to his mate it’s needed to speak in English more.

A little later Tenzin Tsondue La, our staunch hero for Tibet Cause, arrives holding a framed picture of His Holiness the Dalai Lama in both hands raised above his chest. I feel his presence imparts the gathering somehow. He seems to be in the same dark shirt and faded sky-blue jeans; his red headband, dark thick framed white glasses, hair like a Bhutanese woman’s traditional short hairstyle speak his restlessness and compact style so far. As he arrives, the tall bespectacled Indian guy in a khaki jacket and dark-blue jeans approaches near him taking off the professional camera slung over his shoulder. He takes some continuous shots. As Tsondue La stands among the participants at one side, a tall foreigner guy with long blonde hair walking by sees him and looks closely while walking away.

Minute by minute the participants swell into a large group troubling the passing vehicles. And so the buildings around begin to light one after another but the tall streetlight with multi-light-heads over one side isn’t needed yet. A thin veil of grey mist swoops on the square and disappears thereafter; the sky overcast like an inflated stomach. A sudden whiff of overheated oily smell of deep oil-roasted stuffs like chicken, egg or potato brews the air thick.

I see a short young Indian woman by us holding a candle. She doesn't look like a local one from her modern taste in dressing. I don’t find a single Indian other than her.

Yeah, but there is that tall bespectacled smart Indian in his forties, the photographer. Sersang has got this to share with me: He is the owner of the two high-running cafés: Moon Peak and Bean Café. As we both like sipping espresso, we take interest in such places. From the bag with Free Tibet lettering slung on his shoulder, taking interest in such program taking pictures and employing Tibetans at his cafés I take he holds such affinity for us, Tibetan refugees. I feel a pang of gratefulness right on the spot. Thanks!

There are those other photographers and video recorders of both professional bearings and personal ones with digicams and cell phones. I find those taking shots from inside the restaurants around like stealing a peek from a hidden place.

The proper program commences at 6.30pm beginning the march monitored by Tenzin Tsondue La and headed by the guy on portable microphone and those Tawu monks with Tibetan national flags who have come all the way long from Gaden Jangtse monastery in South India up to here on Hunger Strike March (the proper marching program started from Pune city and around many major Indian cities; on foot from Chandigarh up to here; arrived here today). The marcher-monks, not more than 8, have suffered much from their sun-burnt dark complexions to frailty. It’s to walk along the Trousers-shaped streets with the temple at the heart and make three clockwise rounds singing the single stanza of evoking Bodhichitta (Jangchup Semchok Rinpoche…) for ‘peace of mind’ to create a better world. When a vehicle comes along, the narrow street gets clogged for a while. Those local Indian shoppers, who stand by the doorways or lounge on the steps, look upon us like viewing the familiar scene of driving away their customers for a while. There are those foreigners at the corners taking shots.

There are some elderly dedicated foreigners among the marching participants and a few young by me. There must be more of them today expressing their supports in such way. And they are going to be lauded and thanked gratefully by each speaker on the packed porch.
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Then it’s to head towards the proper rendezvous in front of Tibet Museum, the narrow L-shaped yard packed. We find a place before to see the standing speakers in the small porch. Tenzin Tsondue La as the host I follow each speech (first by the concerned co-ordinator monk of Kirti monastery, Dhasa, TWA president, TYC president) closely as possible. All the three speakers try to throw lights on the background of this morning tense and sad incidents, raise the tone of protest against suppressions and atrocities, appeal the world at large for supports, motivate and inspire the fellow Tibetans diaspora. But TYC president makes the point clear for practical supports rather than mere verbal sympathies as the latter have been heard much enough that don’t make any concrete difference. He also says that even if it’s learned from the sources of bystanders during this morning demonstration, when the two monks mouthed slogans calling for ‘The Long-life of His Holiness the Dalai Lama’ and ‘Religious Freedom in Tibet’ before setting themselves ablaze, that one of the monks died on the spot and the other in critical condition taken away to an undisclosed location by Chinese security personnel, but from the other concerned source it has been just learned that both monks are alive but in critical condition in an unknown location.

Standing among the participants and listening to the speeches, I find those photographers standing before with their camera pressed to the eyes rather flustering. They, the two of them, weave through the standing ones like searching for something and take continuous shots when finding something poignant. I find the expression on his face, the bespectacled one in shorts, rather humorous as he stares in such way through the thick glasses.

Before the end of the program, when Tsemei Yonten (Boundless Merit, the timely and marking poetic work dedicated for Tibet’s Cause and World Peace by His Holiness the Dalai Lama) is asked to sing and in the middle of it, I have a strong impression this time following the line after line, so sad and tear-shedding at such time and juncture. Later Sersang tells me he finds the elderly guy beside him weeping when singing it. Yes, we are the fated ones! We should stand together that only leads us to victory!

At the end of the program Tsondue La asks for any interested supporting participants to join the Hunger Strike to be carried out from tomorrow’s morning for 3 days at the roadside by the main temple gate by those marcher-monks from Gaden Jangtse monastery in South. The marchers have been prompted into such gruelling month-long demonstrative action after the monk named Tsewang Norbu, 29, of Nyitso monastery in Kham Karzhe set himself ablaze fatally after voicing slogans calling for ‘The Return of His Holiness the Dalai Lama to Tibet’ and ‘Freedom in Tibet’ on 15 August this year around 12.30pm in Tawu.

Such is said as the same fourth incidence in this year only. Such series of desperate acts really attest to the prime inhuman situation in Tibet.

SAVE TIBET!